Worst days in my life so far...

I think the past few days are the worst days of my life..i felt hopeless, helpless, sad, hurt and angry...about almost everything. I cant sleep well nor can i eat well...i find life so meaningless.. and i dont trust people around me and i am better off alone, i will never get along well with other people..i am better off alone...if there is anywhere i could be or anything that will make me happy i go there without second thoughts...i feel that nobody and nothing in life is worth for me to feel anything about it...i dont even feel myself...

My Bag

Well...last night i saw in i-weekly haha they feature what do those celebrities have in their bag..haha i find it really interesting so i also took a pic of what i have in my bag...haha although i know who give a damn about what i have in my bag..but..haha its for fun:

1) Organizer and Pen

2) Keys (Home and Office)

3) Wallet

4) Umbrella 

5) Cat tissue holder with tissue

6) Lip balm

7) Mobile phone

8) Ipod

9) Headphone

10) Book

Kaylen is almost 9 months old

Kaylen will be 9 months old soon..haha time really passes so fast..and she change so much..but nowadays really naughty and playful but still its was fun spending time with her even its v tiring but baby really learn things very fast..haha 

Seafood Paradise~~

Last sunday, Allen and i brought my mum and Kaylen to the Seafood Paradise @ the Singapore Flyer.. They were so happy and really the food there was really really gd..the seafood fried rice is a must try also the coffee pork ribs (that allen love it)..the price still reasonable...haha well Sunday is a Family day~!! However i still did not get to take the Singapore Flyer..well have to wait till Aug...

50% BE@RBRICK

Today also meet Allen at Vivo for movie and shop a little...he bought me a set of 50% BE@RBRICK.. they are the smallest and is really cute..haha Thanks Allen...

Batam Trip

Went to batam for the first time today... finally had my A&W...haha well i just love the fries and the bear...but really to go all the way there to have this..emm...abit...haizz... but still i enjoy la..it was good to visit a new place. Thanks to XXXXX...haha

Life is...

I have been thinking alot..maybe too much but seriously i know that i am not happy most of the time...isit its just one of the shit period in my life or i need to do something to make a change?! Well maybe i m asking too much..maybe i think too much..maybe i am too sensitive...or i am just a loser...but all i want to a bit of happiness..just a moment that i feel peace again and feel like i am a gd person..well i admit i am a selfish person and sometimes unreasonable but still i have my reasons, feelings and whatever all human have to become what i have beame...i just want to be happy contented and happy again....

BE@RBRICK in action...haha

Brought a few of my BE@RBRICK to office today haha they are so cute..bought a few more during lunch time.. think i start to find them really cute and haha just cute... but they are so limited that i scared if i come across one and i dont get it i will never able to get it le..but again price is a problem...well got to earn more to be able to spend more...working on it.... well haha again will to post all the BE@RBRICK i have after 2 days of very into it...well still very little 400% and 1000% de..no money le la...

BE@RBRICK...So CUTE!!

Got my first 400% BE@RBRICK today..haha and a few 100% ones...they are so CUTE...Met a really nice sales person who know lots about BE@RBRICK and don't mind spending half an hour explaining everything about it...haha he himself had a great collection!!~ think better than the shop itself...haha..cant wait for the next shipment...think i like the 400% collections more..cos it bigger...well dont mind having a few 100% ones but still prefer the 400% and hopefully could also get a nice 1000% ones..which are really expensive la... 

Buran Watch

Today i have added this to my collections ..a beautiful piece, althought blue colour not really my cup of tea but this really look gd in real...and this is the first time i bought i russian brand watch...mostly i prefer swiss watchmakers but the design of this watch really different from what i have in the past... but its Manual Winding so its means if i wear or dont wear it..still have to wind it often..it has Hours, Minutes, Sub-seconds, Date, Chronograph and Moonphase (its quite a complicated watch)..Limited Edition 500pcs, mine is the 160/500..well i just like the number 6...haha i am crazy!!

Something that cross my mind today..

I always wanted a ring from someone i loved...like the Cartier mini love ring which i think it will only be meaningful if its from the one i loved, that's the reason why after so many years i did not get it for myself...like today Lilian ask me "Sis you might as well get it for yourself, don't have to wait ..." but still i am waiting for that surprise..i am always fascinated by how other people propose to their wife...and i looking forward to mine...i know that it is more improtant how your husband treats you everyday, its important how he will take care of you and the family..but still there is like something missing for me...actually althought i wanted the Cartier ring but i understand its costly..i just want a ring it can not be a Cartier but i just want a proper proposal... that comes from the heart...i always wondering, thinking that it is so sweet that a guy wanted a woman so much that he plan on the proposal...went to buy a ring worry that the size is not right or the design she wont like....plan on when and where to propose...worry excited months and days before it, will she marry me...will she like what i plan...will she choose me...will she let me spend the rest of my life with her....its just a once in a life time thing.

Its not that i am unhappy with my life now..my husband is very good to me and dote on our daughter..maybe i am asking for the moon or just being unreasonable....no one's life is prefect with everything there will be some yi han that will always be there... Now the only thing i could wish for is my loved one will be happy and not regret having me as his wife (afterall i can be quite nasty sometimes...abit of unreasonable!!) haha well everyone i loved, my family and friends stay healthy is my biggest wish..as for the ring thingy..just want to fa xie abit i am fine le...haha..

Company event ~ The Iron Man Movie preview

Today i attended the first event Inmagine organise since i joined Inmagine...haha it was a movie preview for all out clients...haha finally get to meet some of them cos all the them we communicate through emails and phone so this is really the first time i saw them..well it was really interesting...anf of cos it is always fun working with my Lovely colleagues..haha attached is the photo we took at the event..Lynn, Elena, Jane and Julie..Where's boss Damien?! (he taking this photo lor!!~~haha) I will also attached a photo of how my working desk in my office look like...

My first Tag Heuer~finally : )

Haha 2 days ago (28 April) I got my first Tag Heuer mother of pearl Aquaracer...haha i just love it..cos i cant get a car yet..so i get this to reward myself for passing my TP test...its always my goal to get one and finally i got it...haha...and i never thought i would get a watchwith diamond but this time i got the one with diamonds vos its really beautiful...haizz...everyone says i am a watch freak..i spent most of my money on watches lor..cannot..must learn/try to save some money le!!