Life~~

I just realized that in life the most important thing is to be contented...it is also the hardest thing in life...i admit that this is very tough for me. There will always have countless things you want in your life, some you work hard to achieve some you just kept thinking about it but cant seems to achieve no matter how hard you have tried. Also there are also times whereby you thought you will be happy when you finally got it but the sad thing is you dont feel happy at all!! As for me, right now i just hope that my family will be happy, i will be able to find a job that is suitable for me and Allen will too enjoy his new job .. of cos i will still have desire for things (eg. watches, shopping...) i will try to control as like i say there will never be enough... and if i stop wanting anything i wont work hard too...thats a bad thing..i think i must balance everything in life... Although recently my mood is really bad...like i dont have energy in life nothing interest me..like i wish to go back to the days whereby i am alone..i somehow feel that being alone is much more simple than having to get along with peoples...but still there are also times where by you need someone to care for you...and i cant always think that being alone will be the best..i learn that sometimes you must open you heart too...and in the past i always think that taking care of Kaylen really very tough and she dont like me anyway...than i realize she is only a baby how can she dont like me..it is because i dont show enough love to her..i did not spent enough time with her play with her..thats why..she dont feel close to me...so this fews day i smile at her everytime i sees her, she will smile back..i laugh with her she will laugh too..the most important is that i want and enjoy being with her..seems like she began to enjoy my company too.. this really feels good and is something priceless!! Must always remember being somewhere you dont want to be or being with someone you dont want to be with is like being in a prison/hell (bad feelings, anger ...) but if you think positively and want to be there or with that person..it will be much easlier...open your heart why make things so different and complicated. And remember : who is the most important person? Ans: The person you are with now... dont keep thinking about the past or future..Now is the most important thing~~ i write all this to remind myself i should never forget!!